Emergency blog post coming at you from my bed at 11 o’clock at night….

I’m writing this emergency post because I’m freaking the fuck out about starting school tomorrow.

In the past ten years, I have attempted to go to school exactly two times and have failed miserably, resulting in defaulted loans and absolutely nothing to show for it. My attention and focus just wasn’t there. Procrastination was my middle name and I owned it. I’ve never even completed a class.

I’m good at working. I work good. You give me a task, I will complete it. But learning is different.

I used to be a straight A student actually. Honors classes, AP classes, etc. I actually graduated high school early. So, why am I so afraid of school?

Because I’m 30 years old, maybe? I’ve done nothing but drink and make bad decisions for the past ten years. I think I’ve damaged the learning part of my brain, maybe?

I feel like this is a bad decision. But since when has education ever been bad?

My rock star manager at work managed working full time and going to school full time with a commute from San Diego to Orange County and I’m over here crying about two classes.

I just feel like someone should’ve really supervised my decision making before I committed to this. That’s all I’m saying.

Okay, i need to sleep. I have a long day tomorrow.