Hi 2021. How are you? Scattered, you say? Aw, well… I think most people feel that way these days. I, for one, can relate. My thoughts and my actions and my beliefs are spread out […]
Category: everyday thoughts
Sundays always come too late.
I’m gonna be 35 in a few days. that’s about it. xo, vanz
Let this be our little secret, no one needs to know we’re feeling higher and higher.
I’m starting to write less sloppily here: https://vanessagomezpereyra.medium.com/ OK, so I never did AA really. There was nothing there for me. Just a bunch of old white dudes talking about how bad they wanted to […]
Do you like to hurt? I do, I do. — then hurt me
Spiritual growth is painful, guys. But I think I’m finally coming through the other side. At least for now. There’s more to come. With God, there is always more.
Break through the walls, beat down the doors, crash through the windows + c o v e r t h e e a r t h
The tattoo on my wrist says CREATE. I got it when I was nine months sober. The little flesh and ink promise that the rest of my life would be spent making good on this […]
Hot like the summer and mean like a child
I packed all of my belongings for the weekend in a pink duffle bag. I always had wanted to be one of those sophisticated women with overnight bags to show that she was planning on […]
I said, “I was born At the bottom of a wishing well”.
NOTE: If you haven’t noticed, I’m posting a lot of old words from prior to 2020. When I got sober, I got in the practice of writing everyday. This doesn’t include my handwritten stuff of […]
Now the only thing a gambler needs is a suitcase and a trunk
I don’t know where to begin so I’ll begin here. I called out of work because I feel like a miserable human being. I’m fat. I’m depressed. I’m ugly. I go to work and sit […]
Do you feel ashamed when you hear my name?
I’m not afraid. I’m going to sit here and type out my fearlessness to show you how unafraid I am. I’m not afraid of my mother finding out. I’m not afraid to attach my name […]
My concern isn’t if you love me. My concern is: Can I love you, just as you are?
Today, I remembered. I had been asleep, dreaming that I was awake. But I was only resting until my consciousness stirred. My eyes opened. I took in a deep breath and the view of my […]
Your love is fearless, help me to be courageous, too.
“The opposite of faith is not doubt, but certainty.” – Anne Lamott I won’t claim to be an enlightened individual. Mainly because if you’re reading this, you likely know me and could call me out […]
I’ve been playing dead my whole life.
I saw a dead owl today. It was stiff and on its back. Two legs stuck out of it, the feathered blob. It was on a path behind me as I walked my dogs. The […]
The Biggest Worst “Decision” to get a 3rd DUI
There is no excuse for driving drunk. Let me be clear. For true change to happen, for people to stop being reckless with their own lives at the expense of others, the way we talk […]
It was well-intentioned but bad advice, hell yeah…
If you’ve ever scrolled through social media during the holidays, or like, a worldwide pandemic, you may come across well-meaning friends posting the number for NAMI or Suicide Hotlines.“If just two of my friends will […]
DUI’s + Jail + Insanity
Just realized I hardly ever shared my videos to my blog, which is kinda weird. As I’m revamping the direction of that channel, figured I’d post some of the classics. While I can’t stand watching […]
