Spiritual growth is painful, guys. But I think I’m finally coming through the other side. At least for now. There’s more to come. With God, there is always more.
Tag: AA
Your love is fearless, help me to be courageous, too.
“The opposite of faith is not doubt, but certainty.” – Anne Lamott I won’t claim to be an enlightened individual. Mainly because if you’re reading this, you likely know me and could call me out […]
The Biggest Worst “Decision” to get a 3rd DUI
There is no excuse for driving drunk. Let me be clear. For true change to happen, for people to stop being reckless with their own lives at the expense of others, the way we talk […]
I was all covered in sound when you asked me to turn it down…
It’s two o clock on a Friday afternoon and my nose is red. It would be red on a Monday morning, too. Or a Wednesday night. But it’s bothering me more now because I wear […]
This might all be gone tomorrow.
As a child, I think my parents did what parents do and tried to protect me from everything that could harm me. God bless them for trying. Sometimes this preoccupation was so grand, that seeing […]
No, I’m not afraid of hard work/And I did everything I want
I just got done telling God I feel like I’m in line, waiting at the DMV trying to get my license reinstated. Not sure how long I’ll be waiting, not sure if I’ll pass the […]
You must have been looking for me.
It starts in the summer. Just as the weather warms up, the sundresses come out of the closet, a new package of hair ties is purchased to hold my ponytail high and only God knows […]
Birds in nature vs. My thoughts
Not really sure the last time I checked out birds. Not in a poetic and meditative state, but just like — birds. Maybe one got caught in my air conditioner (or so I imagine because […]
We do not seem to be getting to the point.
There is a piece I am supposed to be writing about relationships that is due in three days. Just like my relationships, there have been many starts and stops and questions begging to be answered… […]
Everyone so intimately rearranged.
How do people live without reverence? When I first got sober, I used to laugh at meetings when they’d say something like, “I’d get on my knees” or “I’d hit my knees” (okay, I still […]
Anger is the weapon of the powerless [PART 2]
In the course of the past year, I have gotten angry exactly three times. Angry to the point where my chest tightened, my breath became shallow, and the thought “I would not regret if this […]
Anger is the weapon of the powerless [PART 1]
I used to be afraid of making people angry. Now I know it just meant that I was the one that held the power. Now I know whoever gets mad first has already lost. Now […]
My story is the amazing truth.
Maybe it’s because of my years as a habitual liar and Omitter of Truths, that I have a hard time believing all the things people tell me. Not in an especially critical or cynical way. […]
Looking back at 2019
All I did was praise All I did was worship All I did was bow down All I did was stay still The song Defender by Rita Springer ALWAYS. ALWAYS. ALWAYS. makes me cry. It […]
I can’t stop thinking about your goodness
I finally got copies of my medical records and I’m going to share the mental health ones with you. Please note, there are over 600 pages of my psychiatric health in these spanning from 2008 […]
